Looking back at the path i chose

how do i say what i wanted to say
where do i begin to make a start
How do i plead myself to place,
Same place i was , within a beat of your heart.

Far, Far, Far, Further away, i went across, yet you remained the same,

Guilty as hell itself, i am self declaring to be,
Now i realize, what my belief it was meant for whatever i can see,
Smiled as i went further away , 
Yet every day tears rolled down and i looked back at our days

i looked back to see the distance i rode, 
tear drops had dried down all untold,
lost in my own chosen pathway of life,
now i stand up in stride, feeling down in my pride,

Years later now, when i walk down i travel the same,
Lane remains the same, i was carried away, 
Returning down the memory lane, 
i see you standing for me, but the distance is yet further away.

i walk down the road and i want to run and know,
But the days have gone by and we are stranger down the same road,

Friendly smiles exchanged as strangers, 
incomplete as i am , i find the tears, 
now i understand the meaning of fear

where else do i go? i have nowhere else to run, 
i have run everywhere else i was not supposed to know
now we stand finally face to face,
can i shake hands with you and say the words i always wanted to say ?

Forgiveness

How do i say what i meant to say?
Where do i plead my case, knees folded down today,
What words do i use to pray?
When i feel our memories flow down my brain, 
I reach out my hand and try to grab, 
but each one of them fades away.

Oh give me forgiveness, for what I've done right but it all went wrong.
Preach me for what I've thought, then i was not strong.
How do i say sorry?  the hardest to do.
When you're reflections gone and memories so strong.
All i can do is write these words,  but they too get going all wrong.

Sorry to say the word sorry.
Our story went incomplete awry.
I meant to say i miss you as such
But I'm glad we had at last this much.